We often look for peace and happiness in the wrong places.Often we reach out to someone( or other things like alcohol etc) else to fill this void, to rid ourselves of the stress we encounter everyday.
Today i found or should i say reminded myself how easy it is to find this "inner peace", in myself rather than from something (or someone) else.
Im currently dealing with one of the many sides of love,the negative one.Someone that made a huge impact in my life has pushed me away because of some mistakes made.How it happened is irrelevant but i do miss her like crazy.
Life goes on,i do hope to get another chance and show her how much she really means to me but i cant let whats happening NOW get to me. Time will only tell the outcome and thats all i can do right now.
The reason why i posted this is because i want to share that happiness is in all of us,as dumb and silly as it sounds it truly is.The world we live in changes every day and i would love to say the changes are positive, but sadly we are only headed downhill.
we all have to find what makes us happy,staying active is something positive, helping others is also something great to do. Im not saying we should all become saints and hug everyone we see,this is just an example.Here is my reminder.
I was inline to buy something to eat, this older couple walk in and get in line behind me, as they start to discuss what they would like to eat the wife mentions that the shrimp is really good but she doesnt see it on the menu.Since i was looking at the menu trying to narrow down what i wanted to buy myself i noticed the shrimp was there, just kinda hard to see. I over head the lady talking about the shrimp and i could have just minded my own business, but i turned around and pointed out where the shrimp was located.
Its hard to explain but a simple thanks from a stranger is moving. Of course i dont expect anything or help because i need to feel anything from anyone, but i do like offering help when i can.I have always been a giver.
She ended up talking to me a little more while i waited for my food. Asked my once more where the shrimp was located ( i put her age to be in the high 70's) and told me i should try them because they are really good.
This "good deed" lifted me a little, i have been sad and down lately and i just forgot how and where to look for my happiness.
Final thought. Helping others is my way to cope and make life a little better for myself. we are surrounded by so many negative things and haunted by our negative experiences that we lose ourselves in that negativity close our eyes to a happy life.
I will always feel what i feel for this special person,she is amazing in every way, but i cant let what is happening get me down,i will always have hope she returns but in the mean time i will get up, dust off and walk forward.
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